why all this negative thought of ipoh girl are always with me? for your information, during my college time in syc (1994), i used to date an ipoh girl and she was damm fucking cheap like a slut, materialistic, tackled my close friend in front of me and spoilt my relationship with my close friends and classmates. from that moment, i non-stop cursing ipoh girl...
but things changed after 13 years (0807) since i met an ipoh girl during the school education fair in smi, ipoh. her booth was just left infornt of me, from the first moment i saw her, my heart beat was jumped very fast and she just like a little fair pretty princess to me, it just like love at first sight and i told myself that she is the one that i like, suddenly all my anger and curse since 1994 dissapeared. it just like a magic and i reliased that how powerful the love is. til now i still can't believe that how easily and simple all my anger and curse were gone very fast. even i was shy at the moment and my body nearly melted, but i worked very hard to talk to her, to know her better and to win her heart. after i went back to kl, i did the followed up by searched the florist in ipoh from internet and sent her a dozen of pink sweet roses to her. she was really really shocked and suprised with the roses.
jan
most of our communcation was with email, we seldom phone each other except for business purpose only, but we were getting closer & closer and know each other more than each day. And we only had chance to meet with each others during schools or facon education fairs in ipoh.
this is not the cake i bought for her, this is her birthday cake from her friend
the 2nd time we met in st school education fair (ipoh), i knew that she love banana chocolate cake, so i bought 1 big slice of banana choclate cake for her from my hotel in kl. And this was the first time, i brought a cake from kl to ipoh and take about 2 & half hours for someone special to me, wah lau yeh! i really can't believe what am i doing... the power of love... and i knew that she like ikea stuff, so i also brought along the ikea latest catalogue for her too. during the fair, both of us non-stop visited each other booth, chated with each other and cannot concentrate at work.
finally, i asked her whether she has any bf or not, she replied me with 'yes' and together for 2 years already, that time i really don't care whether she has any bf or not, i believe that once a person not married, anyone can go for it! . after that, i asked her when will she getting marry? she replied me with 'i am not ready yet and maybe later'. And she asked me the reason i sent her the roses, i replied her with smile - 'a token of friendship'. omg! what a big lie i told her! the reason i lied to her is because i do not want to spoil our freindship and lose her. that time i was very regret to lie to her and not tell her the truth which is 'i like u and would like to have a love relationship with u'. i knew that she don't believe it and we knew each other from the heart that we like and have feeling for each other.
sweet strawberry from cameron highlandsafter the fair, my boss and me drove to cameron highlands for shopped of fruits, vegitables and plants. while on the way and during tea time, she sms and told me that she liked and enjoyed the cake a lot but cannot finish it and will continue tomorrow during tea time. while shopped in cameron highlands, i had the thought to buy her the roses & strawberries and sms her, she replied me with touch and thank me to have thought to buy her that but she understand that we are not going back to ipoh after that and because we used ringet way to go back to kl.
each time, i went to ipoh for education fair, we keep on asked each others out for dinner (from me) and breakfast (from her) but time not allow to. at last we did not go out at all.
her wedding...one day, i saw her marriage registration ceremony's photos at the facebook, that time i was damm shocked, stunted, hurt, sad, tears out from my eyes and my heart was damm pained just like cut with a knife. i really can't believe it but it is truth! i asked her how come so fast? i thought you told me that you are not ready yet? she replied me - yup, actually i am not ready yet but he suddenly gave her suprise, proposed and touched her heart. shit! that time i was damm regret for not express my feeling directly to her, i knew that she gave me a chance to go for her because she was still opened for 2nd choice but i did not...
in 1207, during the facon education fair in s hotel, she came to visit me and sms me on that night for asked me out for nice and popular din sum tomorrow morning but i rejected her invitation due to i don't want her hubby to suspect and misunderstand us, further more i don't want to spoil their marriage before the actual ceremony run.
after her marriage, we still keep in touch with each other until i left the education industry to banking.
in conclusion, sometime if you really love someone, you have to let her go and support her, she will be more happier, it doesn't mean that you have to hold, get or marry her, and this is the highest level of love where her bf, fiance or husnband also cannot give it to her.
i wish her all the best, have a happy marriage and 'pak tau toh lou' (white head til old).
yammmmmmm..................sengggggggggggggg............................
until now, she is still the lastest person i love even there are 2 more girls (lyy & il) who are single & available and waiting for me out there but i just don't care and did not take any action to them... maybe my love to her is more strong than others...
i love u, jan...
friendship forever...
here is the song and especially dedicated to u, i think that i only can express my right now feeling to you with this song...
張惠妹-快樂眼淚
作詞：林夕 作曲：楊陽 編曲：吳慶隆
看著妳久違卻 熟悉的臉龐 那些煙遠往事 劃上了圓滿
因為妳快變成 別人的新娘
妳終身的對象 一定很理想 否則妳又何必 終止糾纏
只好微笑祝福 你們的浪漫
我終於變得不多愁善感 回憶還像心跳那麼難忘
擁抱的熱 還留在我們的身上
緣分卻不能反抗 愛人不變朋友實在太難
希望離別 能讓以後 更快樂 更幸福 更美滿
漫長路上妳幫我背的行囊 因為有妳的汗 變成珍藏
我給妳的補償 是為妳打扮
那次大雨中下班 我拿一把雨傘 來接妳 想起來 難免傷感
感謝妳愛我一場 難得敘舊笑談 依然溫暖
有浪漫 沒緣分 總不算遺憾
我終於變得不多愁善感 回憶還像心跳那麼難忘
擁抱的熱 還留在我們的身上
緣分卻不能反抗 愛人不變朋友實在太難
希望離別 能讓以後 更快樂 更幸福 更美滿
我快樂 的眼淚 在流轉
